I’m only 28 and already lost my confidence. Secured women, what did you do to be stronger?

I used to be very secured in myself. I had a mentality that I’m my own individual and I’m just fine. I never think of my features as not good enough, etc. until I got into a reIationship.

Ive been with my bf for 1.5 year now and in that year, I saw him gawking at women 3x. We talked about it and he stopped. I’m already bruised from it that it damaged my own self-worth physically.

I see him instinctually glancing at girls when we’re in public, not intentionally and if he didn’t get a good look, he will look agin. He also loves playing tennis and I see him google searching wives and gf of tennis players. Sometimes if he sees an interesting women onIine, he google search them up and look at their IG profile. All I know is that I feel insecure for sure…. I want to feel secured forever. What did you all secured women do? And how did feel peace within yourself and relationship? How did you solidify your security not having to feel affected when you feel “compared” and “inadequate” even when you’re really not