23f stopped taking insulin

I got diagnosed with type 1 diabetes a month ago and stayed in hospital a month ago for 3 days, I don't shoot my bolus insulin and only use long acting and I don't want to go to doctors every 6 months I want to continue smoking but I can't becouse I'm scared of getting cancer I don't want to suffer for long time I hope I just don't live for long The worst part is there is a cure (sernova cell pouch) ut it's not accessible to anyone right now