Feel like I’m not alcoholic enough for AA

Hi all - something I’ve struggled with is the idea that I’m not “bad enough” for AA. I really want to work the program, but at the same time I feel like I might just be weak and that I’m not actually an alcoholic but just a “hard drinker”. I was listening to Chris Raymer’s talk about how not all AA members are real alcoholics and I’m a bit worried. My drinking hasn’t resulted in DUI’s or job losses, but whenever I drink I’m off to the races and often cannot stop. I’m not sure what to do I feel guilty for potentially joining AA and not being a real alcoholic. However I cannot drink in a controlled fashion but it’s not as exorbitant as other stories I hear. What if I sponsor someone whose story is more intense than mine and I cannot help them? I also keep relapsing but on the whole it’s not as bad as it could be but I know it could get there. My apologies for the rambling I’m just very confused. Thank you and God bless

Edit: I wanted to give a very heartfelt thank you to all of the comments and resources you have shared. It is both a huge relief and a wake up call and I am very grateful. I will be going to a meeting today - looking forward to trudging “the road of happy destiny” with you all